HOW IT ALL STARTED...

Who would have thought that you were once a stranger who I used to just exchange messages on the phone is now someone with whom I share the best moments of my life? You were once that stranger who wouldn’t stop sending me messages and chats, that someone who didn’t give up until the fall of 2019.It was nearly the end of October 2019 when you started sending me messages and chats. Mejo napipikon nga ak mo sayo at that time kasi ayaw mong tumigil mag send ng message. Di mo pinalilipas yung isang araw an wala kang text and what annoyed me the most was when you told me that you love me kahit di mo pa naman ako nakikita.I won’t deny, I wasn’t really interested in you at first. I thought you were just playing with my feelings, and that you aren’t really serious with everything that you were saying on the phone. I did not believe in everything that you’ve said until one day, nag bago lahat.It was October 28, 2019, you’ve decided to come and see me at work. I wasn’t really expecting that you would come on that day but when I saw you, everything felt so real. You were real, you were literally in front of me, smiling at me and you even said those 3 words. “I LOVE YOU”. At that very moment, I was wishing that you would stay longer so I could see you for a longer time. But when I saw you walking away, medyo nalungkot ako kasi gustong gusto pa kitang makita.After that day, nagbago lahat. Mas madalas na tayong magka usap, mas madalas magtawagan at mas masy sense na yung mga pinag uusapan natin. You even came and picked me up from work the day after mo akong pinuntahan sa work. I remember that night when we went sa UpHill. it was too cold and a little bit windy and I asked you kung giniginaw ka, and you said “no” but you were already shaking. So we ended up talking sa loob ng car. I was so shy at that time but I couldn’t help myself na titigan ka. I liked the way you were smiling and laughing at me. And at that moment I felt that unexplainable feeling of being in love.. again.We stayed there for hours. Just talking, laughing, staring at each other. We were so happy. I was so happy. Then it was early in the morning of October 30, 2019, 1:27AM, you dropped me at home. I honestly want to spend more time with you at that moment but we really had to go. Pagka labas ko ng car, sabi mo “wait lang” and you gave a teddy bear, a bunch of roses, then you kissed me. I was actually shocked at that very moment but at the same time I could feel my heart beating very very very fast.Ang bilis ng mga nagyari. We met online, see each other in person, spent time together and in just a short period of time, we became a couple. I was the happiest at those times. I would automatically smile whenever I remember you, those moments with you, everything about you. I was so in love with you that I could ignore other things just to be with you.We would see each other twice a week during our days off and that wasn’t enough. (how could I forget that night when you asked me to come home with you for the first time! hahaha!) I’d love to spend every second and minute of my day with you. We had this routine where you would pick me up every Monday night and we would spend the next 2 days(our days off) together then you would drop me home on the night before we go back to work for the next morning. It was hard because we had to wait for a week to see each other but there were times when I would really miss you so much and I would come to see you at work. You would give me flowers almost every month especially on special occasions, you never fail to make me the happiest and the most special person in the world. Things were okay, we were okay, we were happy and we were in love.But it wasn’t a very good day every day. There were times when we would argue, fight, yell at each other on the phone. We had our misunderstandings and some of the bad stuff, and one of them was the idea of you still living with your ex. That’s one thing that hurts me until this very moment.. And I remember those times when we were having our little fights, you would wait in front of the house for long hours just to wait for me to come outside and talk to you. You would sacrifice your sleep and would wait for me outside no matter how long it takes for me to lower my pride and come and talk to you.Months had passed and we were still doing the same routine. See each other twice a week, text and call each other from time to time, go on dates, spend time together. Then one day we’ve decided to move in together. I was hesitant at first because I have this trauma in living together with a partner. I wasn’t really sure when you asked me if I want to move in with you, but because I want to spend every moment with you, I said yes, and we moved in together.At first, it was okay. Things were okay, we were okay, we still do our normal stuff, but then months have passed and that’s when we saw each other’s real attitude. That’s when all the arguments and fights became worst. There were nights when I would cry myself to sleep because we weren’t giving me the attention that you used to give when we were just starting. There were days when I feel unloved because you would choose to do something else than spending time with me. I felt like I was with a stranger at those times because honestly, you’ve changed a lot when we started living together. there were times when you would raise your voice on me, ignore me, go to sleep without fixing our fights.Things have changed in just a couple of months. You rarely give me flowers, You do give me, maybe when you just feel like you want to, or when you know that I wasn’t okay or when we’re not okay. You don’t often give me those “paglalambing moments” anymore, and the same thing, you only do that when you feel like you want to, or when we’re not okay, or when I asked you to. These things might be not a big deal for you but these are just some of the things that I really miss about you. These were the things that the old you used to do before just to make me feel the happiest and the most special person.We just got used to it. I do complain sometimes and you would make everything better. You would give me more time and attention and you would make me feel how much you love me and that you don’t wanna lose me . It’s just so sad that you notice me more when you knew that I wasn’t okay or when I feel sad and unimportant. But I had to understand it because that’s the only way for us not to argue. I kept all the pain and disappointment that I’ve felt, and that triggered my anxiety most of the time.Months and years passes by and we became more comfortable to each other and just got used to everything that was happening to our relationship. There were times when I already wanted to give up on us, but just thinking that I’m gonna lose you for the rest of my life makes me feel miserable. I just love you so much that I would endure all the pain and disappointments just to be with you.I do know that every relationship has their ups and downs, and our relationship is not an exception to that. But no matter how imperfect our relationship is, no matter how crazy we are, no matter how we argue and fight on most immature things, I will always stay and make the happiest memories with you . I love you more than anything and everything.-Kulet<3